the silver lining

i'm too handicapped and gloomy to do much blogging.  being at home a lot leaves me restless with too much time to think.  but i'm trying to focus on the good:

• my grandmother is here until Monday to help me out.  this is time i wouldn't have found to be with her.
  
• friends at preschool are driving j. 3 days per week and i had so many volunteers that there are no repeats. i might not have realized who lives close and who counts me as a friend.
  
• i combined both yoga classes into one this week and pulled it off, one handed. that set the bar for yoga class challenges and i learned a lot about my teaching from it.
• i was head of the nominating committee for my moms club and spent a total of 4 hours this week making phone calls.  that's a ton of my time. my friend amber consulted with me during it and i felt a bit useful again. also, if i wasn't so currently busy i might have agreed to be moms club president next year but was smart enough to be humbled by my limitations. i may have harder things to face over the next year.
• my inactivity is so frustrating to me that i have decided to bounce back with energy! as soon as i get this cast off, i am joining the healthy moms club which might result in a gym membership, and am planning on doing the weekly walks with moms club friends as soon as i can push a stroller again.  i was too busy with work and volunteering this spring to pay any attention to my fitness. the time has come!
• my cast has made complications for my big excitement of the summer- camping at a weekend bluegrass festival with the kids, heather, and julie. after much pushing from jeremiah and julie, i finally relented and agreed to stay in a hotel room overnight. it's not the ultimate experience that i had hoped for, but it's only fair to my friends. and i still get the weekend outdoor music festival with friends and my kids (jeremiah warned that he may keep the kids home with him rather than let me try to camp one-handed!).  now i'll just have to push for a different camping weekend!
• i have many friends, a few good friends, 3 best friends, and an amazing husband. he is the best partner i could ever hope for. 

there is also the big insurance hurdle standing in our way of having another baby. i have been on the phone, internet, and snail mail with them every week day since i broke my arm. this break has given me time to wallow in anxiety and frustration, but also to truly examine what i'd be facing if i had a third child. the insurance company has until the end of the summer to cover us for maternity. and then we're going ahead, with or without them.  a desire to be a midwife qualifies me to administer my own pre-natal care, right?