First Yoga Class. (bust)

Today I had my first Baby Itsy Bitsy Yoga class. I spent a lot of energy advertising and got about 5 emails from people who were interested. 3 of the 5 said they'd come. Only one did. It takes a LOT of extra energy teaching a class with only one participant. There's not as much sharing and community; there aren't other kids to help model and encourage the babe to do the poses. I ended up doing my plan and then some!!!!  Good thing I've been practicing so much! So I feel good about how I did as a teacher, particularly since I had to think on my feet. But I have to do a lot more work to get ready for next week.  

With only one person in the class I could cancel it. But I don't want to do that to her since she tried so hard to come.  Her baby is technically above the line to participate in a baby class anyhow- she started to crawl after her mom enrolled.  So I used my Tot Yoga knowledge to bring in the poses and songs that would be better for her. Next week I'll try to get C. to participate so they can both do Tot poses together and hopefully that will be a bit better.  And if more people show up next week, I'll do a combo class.  

None of this is ideal. And it doesn't apply to my original goal, which is doing my 4 Baby Itsy Bitsy Yoga classes required for certification. I'll have to squeeze them in elsewhere. But I really love that I get to teach! I had so much fun! And the girls got to play upstairs with a mother's helper and they love the CCM! So I still want to do it for the next 4 weeks for practice and fun. I can't wait until this is my job and not something I have to fit around my job!

Best Moment Lately:

When C. wakes up from her nap and J.'s still at preschool, I move the kid table and chair to a new location (this makes it special) and put on the cd that C. likes and bring out the playdoh! You might remember that I used to have a whole playdoh factory setup and accessible at all times in my kitchen. That was great and J. loved it. But then it got to be very common place so we scaled it down. And by then C. was trying to eat the playdoh, so I boxed it up and set it all out of reach. J. still hasn't seen it yet- I only play with it with C.  It's a secret toy just for C. and I. I put it away a few minutes before preschool ends in order to keep it secret and special. 

Worst Moment Lately: 

Generally, I'm not getting back the energy that I'm putting out. I plan, advertise, shop, and set up an activity at the nature center for work, and then no one shows up for it. This happened for TWO activities there this past weekend. As always, I can after-the-fact justify reasons for why this happened, but I always put a lot of thought and hope into the planning so that the programs will be appealing and available to as many people as possible. 

And then it just happened for my yoga class today.

And Jeremiah and I have been brainstorming and planning different fundraising ideas for his campaign and I'm worried that it'll be a bust too.

And I've spent the past week researching, designing, drawing, writing, and photographing a new garden plan for J.'s preschool. We're talking 6 very large gardens. Lots of work. And I'm writing two grants to get money for the supplies and plants.  Again, that's a lot of work. I'm worried that we won't get the funding and it'll all have been for nothing. 

I'm not used to doing things and not getting the energy return back from the universe. Usually my karma flows pretty regularly.  I usually don't have to give doubt and worry a second thought. But lately, I'm just not finding the love out there. I'm hoping it's storing up for something big!

Thoughts of the Day:

Our CSA ended last week. I'm kind of glad. It was a lot of pressure. I ended up giving away at least one thing from every weekly box that I got.  I also sadly composted several things because I couldn't get to it in time or I couldn't bring myself to cook it.  There was a tomato blight so we barely got any tomatoes. I thought we'd get more fall squash than we did. Basically, I love the intention behind it, but it didn't match my grocery list or tastebuds well enough to justify it. What I need is a personal shopper to hit the local farmers market for me every week! Then I can get what I want (which is always tomatoes), have it be local and hopefully organic, and buy it from a  farmer. But I never have time on Wed afternoons (nap time) or Saturday mornings (prepping for work) to hit the farmers market! I totally need a second wife.